ami

i want something....i just don't know what it is...who it is...and where to start...

have you ever felt like getting all annoyed and pissed off?like, you wanted to create something, move on to something new or be with someone you've never thought of...something totally different from what you are really going through...and everything,everything around you just doesn't meet. all the contradictions fall to what you badly wanted. all the intensions seem concrete but they're totally out of your reach. and when you've fnally figure out, grab the strength to pull through you miss that one person who's going to help you...and like a passenger who miss the ride you wait for another train to come to reach your destination...but out of innocence, out of not-knowing, you have no idea when is the next train coming. so you sit by the bench and like a hopeless individiual you wait...wait...wait...wait...

and time, time takes the most out of you...

you wish that it ceases. that it will never strike again as fast as it will always does...

and back to reality, you still have it...

the questions,though shredded are still unresolved...

and the next trip, nobody knows when its going to pass by you again...

but you have to wait...

it will pick you up=D

what's true?

it's quite an issue of who to believe and what to belive.
i've been dealing with things na talagang naguguluhan ako.
the other case was worst, dahil nasasaktan na ko.
nasasaktan, in a sense that i don't want others, esp. my sisters to feel the pain.
it's out of their control and too complex for them to understand.
if only i can patch the details and retell everything to them just so that they can understand and end up unhurt.
jumping into conclusions had lead me to something worst before.
this time i don't want to commit the same mistake.
i don't want to end up judging then getting them hurt.
this isn't an easy thing.
it's an issue i should take seriously because it will surely affect my entire being.
but how can i take this into action when i don't know what's true?

The other issue is about the "F" that has been a part of me.
i've been acquianted with lots of people right now.
some are real while others....hmmm....time will judge!
it's just that i've been hearing talks about them from people i can truly rely.
and those news weren't good ones.
there were news that question their personality.
some were facts, that i personally have witnessed.
and honestly, i don't like those attitudes i've seen from them.
it's hard. esp. when you get in between.
i don't want to play a role but it seems like the tension puts you into pressure.
all i ever wanted was to enjoy the last few days of this school year.
i don't want to be recognized or whatsoever.
it has never been my ambition to be so.
life isn't perfect and these questions are out for me to accept.
they might remain unanswerable but they'll streghten me for sure.

dilemmas are quite heal!
Thank you for taking time to read this!
=)

things might end...and i hate endings....

wow!everything just happened so fast...
from that first year of moving on to a new school...
from a new world of strangers to finding true friends....
high school experiences were definitely treasures worth keeping forever....
but it's quite sad to realize that i am now a senior....
last year na lang namin 'toh....
after a few months,ending na.
haaaay....
hirap pa naman ng farewell....
the past farewells were ok kasi alam naming next year we'll surely see each other....
but this thing is different...
it's really the end...
hmmmm....
wait up!
why i am speaking of ending eh kakasimula pa nga lang ng senior year namin eh...
hehe!
anyway,i just hope this school year wouldn't be a disaster,as how others might have called our batch...
wahahaha!
//AIRHEADS!//
THOSE WORDS!a sure fire!
wahaha!
pero ngayon,mukha namang happpy ang batch....
and as with me,i am happy....
i'm glad with everything that's happening in my world...
hmmm....sana good omen na 'toh for this year*fingers crossed*
i just really hate the thought of leaving high school...
super dami ko pang things na hindi na-experience that i thought i was supposed to experience right now...
but let's see what this year has in store for us....
Who knows the ENDING might just be a BEAUTIFUL BEGINNING=)
gOOD LUCK'',

to all my friends...to those who have been and to those who remain!

Friendship has been truly unpredictable…

Some friends will remain while others would just simply say bye-bye! For some reasons you wouldn’t love to hear…

Some friendship will be left blossoming, you know going stronger for the rest of there lives but for some, they just fade and die…

Forever…is not meant to be said rather than to be kept…

Friendship is not just acquaintances, it is not merely “hellos and how-are-you? Chats”…

It is more than just keeping your deepest darkest secrets and knowing who your crushes are…

Friendship unfolds the true you unseen by others…

Friendship appreciates the flaws and the weirdness…

Friendship loves the inner being created for one perfect L ove=)

My friends have taught me things. They’ve shared to me more than just what I’ve expected to be. They’ve shown to me those things that “my world” had never known.
Minsan nakakatuwa na lang isipin lahat ng shared moments with my friends. I will never forget the laughter and jokes. Hmmm…I would just like to mention the names of my friends who gave that heap of laughter. Jesrell, one big joker talaga!

Nikko

, an admirable hunk of the class…he would always call himself as one of those cute guys in TV or the cool MVP player! Marco, my kuya…zzzzzzzzzz…!hahaha! Juris,as everybody knows…she has that “decent mouth”.Tamse,Fight! Lang lagi.Jacque,super dooper volume!Elwin,a simple man with simple jokes.L.a.,super jolly and super energetic. Clang,hyper to the max! Katrel,a singing diva. Karlo,the best actor of all time and of course the drama king. Momy banda,my super Mom who took all the boys.Charm,she’ll own a parlor someday. Marian,super ma-kwentong tao.Khale,bading pero super funny. Paolo,a true gentleman yet one of the jokers.

and before my list end,of course i wouldn't forget my friends who remain to be the best...Dianne,my first best friend. We share a lot of things in common and we both admire each other. Natalie, my new best friend. she's a cow girl! always on the go and i know i will be learning a lot of things with her!=)

so,i guess my list have to end.bye!

school year will soon end....

haaay....should i be sad or be glad??school year will soon end and that means no more homeworks(yes!),no more projects-on-the rush(yippee!!) and most esp. no more long exams(WAHAHAHA!!!)pero with all the advantages come the very sad disadvantages....kasi pagkatapos ng school year na 'toh maraming mahahalagang tao na naging part ng high school life ko,namin(i mean the whole batch...)will leave...
nakakalungkot kasi kung sino pa yung mga gusto mong makasama sila pa yung mawawala. and thinking of all the "upcoming misadventures" that will happen on our senior year....omg!....wish us luck na lang.hehe!
    and after this school year you'll never know what the summer heat will bring. it may bring sadness and longing for that someone or the nature of forgetting(sana wag naman...)
    But this school year has definitely allowed me to experience certain things i never expected to experienced.all the pains,the partings,the korney jokes!haha!,the classmates who get through your nerves..hmp!,the stupid stuffs,the tears of friendship,the tears of joy,the tears of failures,the simple smiles for hope,the smiles of triumph,the hug of true friends,the assurance of love,the guilt of sin,the mistakes of youthful life,the applause of the crowd,the bitter reality,the joy of being a part of a whole and most esp......THE SPARK!=)

how sad=(

“When you want something, the entire universe conspires in helping you to achieve it”

        Yeah right! I believe in that pero bakit ganun we wanted that “something” so badly, we wanted that “something” to prove something to them pero we end up with something so worst. As what others might have explained as ‘karma’ daw…ouch!

I couldn’t just accept the fact na karma nga ang nangyari but to tell you the truth it really hurt so badly that I wish we could just go back to that clean slate and try to knit the entire stuffs again. We might have started wrongly but how I pray na sana whatever might happen tomorrow we’ll still have the true spirit of friendship, the true meaning of winning and the true happiness of being together.=)

“If you start out by promising what you don’t have yet, you’ll lose your desire to work toward getting it.”

        Maybe that was our big mistake. A real disappointment for everybody who believes in what we can do. And it was a real disappointment for us to disappointment them. Nakakalungkot isipin at pag-isipan kung anung mangyayari sa amin tomorrow. But I still believe that the winning spirit still lives on. Marami pa namang way para makabawi kami eh. We’ll make it!God guide us….

24 Things to Always Remember

Your presence is a present to the world.
You are unique and one of a kind.
Your life can be what you want it to be.
Take the days just one at a time.

Count your blessings, not your troubles.
You will make it through whatever comes along.
Within you are so many answers.
Understand, have courage, be strong.

Do not put limits on yourself.
So many dreams are waiting to be realized.
Decisions are too important to leave to chance.
Reach for your peak, your goal and you prize.

Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.
The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets.
Do not take things too seriously.
Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.

Remember that a little love goes a long way.
Remember that a lot … goes forever.
Remember that friendship is a wise investment.
Life’s treasure are people together.

Realize that it is never too late.
Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.
Have heart and hope and happiness.
Take the time to wish upon a star.

AND DO NOT EVER FORGET ….
FOR EVEN A DAY
HOW VERY SPECIAL YOU ARE !

>>>>>yeah!those are the things we should always remember to remind us of our own worth as a person...=)

who i am....

ok...i'm actually a normal person.I simply wanted to do "what's right!" and often neglect "what makes me happy!" and with that case i'm usually thought of as -boring!-(i don't know if others believe that i am but as what my sister says...and thinking it is true...i believe i am)Maybe it's one of the sad point of doing what they expect you to do.All my life,i'm trying so hard to do what my parents expect me to do.i don't see anything wrong with it...but as i grow up,it seems like people try to oppose what "i believe in'.Sometimes i seem to go over my beliefs, and principles...sometimes i feel right with doing so...but, sometimes i feel so wrong.Weird noh!haha...well that is actually who i am "Weird'!There are a few things that i have not experienced and i guess i quite have a plan to experience it this year.It's hard to go through the emotions of being that -singe girl- in your circle of friends...hehe!yeah right! It's my choice..i prefer being single,but i hate the talks about me being that -single girl-.I hate how people asked me this question:"Bakit ba kasi ayaw mo pang magka boyfriend?"grrrr....minsan parang those questions serve as an omen for me to push through a relationship but thinking of not having Mr. Right...then i should better stay Single!haha...After all,my day is still complete even without having that so-called special someone.

And whatever this stuffs may lead i know at the end of the day...i'll always be sleeping.haha!and when i woke up the next day,it's a fresh new start,a new beginning,a new chance of learning and experiencing,and another wonderful discovery of "who I am..."